Sunday, September 27, 2009

35

Holidays are cool.

1. What have you been doing recently?

Facebook-ing, Digg-ing... Things normal people do during holidays.

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?

I think so..Btw, where's my handphone?

3. What happened at 10am today?

Sleeping with my bear bear.

4. When did you last cry?

Last week.

5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?

Yeah.

6. What do you want in life now?

What do I want now? Chocolates, I think.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?

Nope. I use books instead.

8. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

Email or sms? Anything from Neutral I guess. =P

9. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?

People say I do.

10. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?

Nope.

11. What was the last movie you caught?

Orphan.

12. What are you proud of?

Nothing.

13. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?

Wait, I think I lose my handphone..get back to you later.

14. What was the last song you sang out loud?

低调

15. Do you have any nicknames?

Not really.. Sa Po?

16. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?

Owh.. it's very long.. from a long lost friend.

17. What time did you sleep last night?

3.02am.

18. Are you currently happy?

Hmm...not really.

19. Who gives you the best advice?

Loong.

20. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

Yuck...

21. Who did you talked to on the phone last night?

Nobody called me.

22. Is something bugging you right now?

Yeah.

23. Who is the last person to make you laugh?

My sister.

24. Do you like yourself?

Most of the time, nope.

25. You want $5 or $10?

What for?

26. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?

Nope. I always am.

27. Who is your best best best friend?

Yi Wen.

28. What will you do if you like that boy?

Nothing..stalk him, probably.

29. Who are your favourite stars?

Johnny Depp, Nicholas Cage, "Edward Cullen", Nicholas Teo...blah blah blah..

30. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?

Never.

31. Do you had even stead before??

???

32. What type of boy do you like?

What?Type? Erm, probably the hybrid of neutral+durian. =P

33. Now are you single/attached?

Single.

10 people to tag. 10 random names.

1. You Gee

2. Wah Loong

3. Hooi Ying

4.Shun Ling

5. Ainin

6. Chia Venn

7. Ming Chai

8. Yi Wen

9. Zhao Kang

10. Jie Min


1. Would you date number 5?

Sure.

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?

Omg! No!!! Loong, you're going to be fine... You'll be alright.. Yes you will...

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?

What do they talk about?

4. You come home and and your room has been ransacked by number 4.

Oh dear Dai Ga Jie, what are you looking for?

5. Number 1 is acting weird.

Told ya don't do that... Are you OK?

6. Numbers 3 & 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.

Cool!Make sure he looks taller and thinner please. XP

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert.

Thanks for the tickets. I'll go with Shun Ling and Ainin...and Hooi Ying. XP

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.

In my dream..

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.

Yeah I know.. I'm gonna miss you like hell..Have a great life with your 'piggie' over there! XP

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.

Berat sama dipikul, ringan sama dijinjing. =)

11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie when he/her wrap his/her arm around you.

What the... !! Get your hand OFF me NOW or I'm gonna sue you for sexual harrassing underaged girl! XP

12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.

Let's go!

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.

Oh, he would probably in full spate then. There'll be no worries of 'communication problem'.

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can't sleep.

Wrong number. This number does not belong to Beng.

15. You're walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.

Sweat...(v.v|||)

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.

Everything's gonna be alright. I'm still here.

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.

Loong again... Help!!!

18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.


Wah, can I touch it? [Next, she'll be looking into the mirror and then smile, smile, smile....]

19. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.

What's X-box?

20. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!

No way! I always lose in card games! Yi Wen will play for me. =P

21. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.

Come on...

22. Number 7 looks lonely.

I'll tell Ainin. =D

23. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.

Okay..

24. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.

Thank you. But, for your info, surprises have succumbed to me.

25. Number 6 decide to dye his/her hair black. What do you say to that?

That's OK. What did Beng say?

26. Number 7 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where he/she went.

God bless you... Nah, you're going to be just fine. I know that.

27. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.

Don't stressed up. I know it's hard, but you can make it through.

28. Numbers 1, 3, 5 and 6 all tackle you at once.


Huh? Speechless.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Thirty-four

If only I had the gut
to bang myself against the wall

Nonsense!
Nonsense!
Nonsense.

Can't quit now. Can't move on, either.

i LOVE eald, very much.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Thirty-three(Love Letter)

If blogging has become a medium for us to talk, why waste it?

V,

I can take harsh words. As long as you talk, I can take it. Because of you, I'm losing myself, wondering how could I become like this. And then, because of you, I found what I've been searching for all these whiles.

I'm been wondering, how could I dislike a close friend like you, so much, to the extent that I myself can't accept. Now I know why, but there's no need to tell. It's good that you left me alone, as the spaces you gave allow my hatred to diminish and now it's gone. Our friendship is gone, but there's no need to mourn as we both paid the price.

We used to be so close together. At least I thought so. But at the meanwhile, I know that I myself never really truly opened up and let you in. You can perceive thing this way: I never put much faith in you, even though I tried. I never try to be angelic, but I like the your comment that I am a coward who pretends to be good. All these whiles I am only TRYING TO BE GOOD, because I've never been real good, because I've been spoiled before I came here, because I listen to my head rather than my heart all these time.

I don't have a kind heart. No matter how hard I try to get one. There's always something inside, something I regard as selfishness. Even writing this is merely due to my selfishness, worrying that some time in the future I'll feel bad for what I've done to you before I die. See?

I've never been good in anything. Not even in 'shooting' people or to say what others dare not to say. It's you who dare to voice up, I never do, and that's the part I admire the most about you. I am a coward who pretends to be good, so true. If only I had your gut to be who I am. Somehow your theory of the art of camouflage fits exactly into my context. I have tonnes of masks, each different from one another. If I could make a business out of it, I'm pretty sure I could have earned more than Bill Gates.

I don't remember since when it began. I asked my best friend, how to divorce a friend, since the beginning of 2009. And when I thought things could be fine if I bend my knees, I suggested reconciliation and you accepted it. It took so long for me to realize that you and I can never be good friends, we never should, not with your characteristics and my personality. Never. It was a fatal mistake since the beginning. We shouldn't have been that close. Had we only been casual friends I'm sure we wouldn't have come to where we are now.

Yes, exactly, different mindset. For I am a coward, I bottled up all my dissatisfaction and unhappiness on the inside. I don't know if you do. Things went out of control when he came in between you and me. But I guess I've reached the breaking point that now it broke, and I feel extricated. How pathetic. It's all my problem, after all. It's me who got problem. Nothing to do with him or you.

I don't know much about you. But I know you can survive. And that you have a bright future ahead of you, waving and smiling and welcoming you. So I know it's good for both of us, to let go of each other.

You influenced me so much to an extent that I myself can't believe. I did not cry when Neutral went off to the US. Durian's rejection failed its duty to call for my tears. But you. I felt tears coursing down my cheek when I signed the paper, marking the end of our friendship.

I've been thinking of writing a love letter before I reach 20. Just never thought that it would be something like this. You never changed. You are still the one who I first knew. Assertive and confident. You've taught me a lot of important things in this life.

Lastly, for bearing hatred for you, for I couldn't make it the way I thought we were meant to be, for all the things that I've done which might have hurt you, I'm sorry. Glad that we both tried. Glad that you woke me up.

I am sincere, too.

Thirty-two

When girls are swooning over beautiful CLOTHES, nothing comes into sight except CLOTHES, not even Edward Cullen. What's more wtih... [Effectively applicable for Hooi Ying and Ainin]

"Gosh, the skirt is very nice! Wanna take a look?" Hooi Ying suggested.
"I think the blue one is better." Ainin said.

Forever 21. There we entered the shop.
My footsteps stopped at the entrance as I tried to 'scan' through the shop.
OK... The shirts/skirts/whatsoever sold here just don't lift my appetite.

I was standing alone when the mysterious shadow walked towards to me, as Hooi Ying and Ainin were so excited and drooling over their new- found favourites.

My eyes were still scouring the shop when that guy tried to do something.

Dangerous. A tinge of fear slithered down my spine as my biological alarm rang inside my brain. Thinking that he might be a psycho or whatsoever, I didn't even bother to look at him and walked straight towards Hooi Ying and Ainin at a marvelous speed.

That guy followed me.

In that case..perhaps he is some sort of ..salesman or sale assistant in the shop, I thought.

Then I turned and looked at his face.

Eh? Not sale assistant? So familiar?

My retarded mind started to carry out its function by sending me all the information/possibilities on whose face is this. The process was so efficient and effective as if it has romped through the thousands of faces that I've ever seen in my life in that mere half-second!

Gosh, it was Mr. Derick!

"I was like blah blah blah... and then blah blah blah...you guys blah blah blah..." Mr Derick grumbled.
"Really? Oh..blah blah blah blah blah blah..." Ainin replied.

Having just experienced a superb shock, the only phrase I heard was 'window shopping'.

So we bumped into our EALD lecturer yesterday. How unexpected.
So our lecturer made an effort to make himself visible in our eyes. How cute. Hehe...