Fifteen

Sorry guys. I have been in 'idea drought' for days. So, I'm going to pose something really 'personal' this time.

First of all, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all my fellow friends who had attended my Annual Promotion Ceremony. With the grace of God and your support, thankfully, I am now eligible to join the Aunties Association, in which the committee is comprised of Hooi Ying, Shun Ling and Jae Von [so far]. I thanked so much for what you've done, notwithstanding the redundant 'hidding part' which proved to be utterly futile. Anyway, it's OK because Ainin got very excited for what she had done and it was really cool to see her with a big sincere wide smile on her face while everybody was in dire need of sleep. [Kids never get tired, right?] One thing impressed me the most was their objectives in selecting the Cake of the Day-First, the flattest surface for 'convenient-writting' on it; second, the simplest structure for 'easy-cutting' of it.

So, as a new member, I have to brush up on my gossiping skill before the recruitment for another 'fresh aunty' which will be coming in June. [Yeah, more aunties will be coming up next.] Besides, I wish I could gain weight as soon as possible in order to maintain the stereotype of a typical aunty. Aunt J would be my weight-gaining partner for this. Lastly, I've registered for the narcissism course organised by the association vice-president, Aunt Shun, as to build up my level of confidence.

At night, my friends back home came to congratulate my promotion. One slice of my favourite CheeseChoc, a pack of self-made cheese tarts, the ladybird+zebra-like jacket, filled my night with love, again. Of course, I would never forget how the two of them, wholeheartedly, sang the theme song out loud at the park in the middle of night, as if there were ten singing it.

That night, I looked up to the cloudless sky and I felt replete with love. I saw stars in the sky. They were dead, yet they looked beautiful. I think that's what I should live with.

I'm 19.

Fourteen

So, I was drowned in the tsunami disaster. Badly injured as I am, I ran to the computer lab, to get in touch with the computer, which could probably ease my anguish.

I was lucky as I got an pretty simple question. I was given sufficient time to get myself prepared, to take a DEEP breathe or whatsoever self-calming methods and YET...I talked as if I have never learned English before. I'm not even comparative to a kindergarten child! I'm pretty sure that it wasn't my nervousness that caused me floundered like a lost lamb. It IS my ICU level of ENGLISH. Fish is to swim as bird is to fly while I'm just akin to a bird trying to swim in the water. I've learned the method to swim but to master the skill, a lifetime would presumably not enough.

Sometimes, I just feel like banging my head against the wall. Again, I'm like the frog under the well. Only when I jumped out from my happy little world that I realized how important English is. So, basically, if I were to look into a mirror which reflects a person's real image, I would probably see a combination of a frog head[which contain a frog's brain] joined to a bird's body without wings with a fish tail attached. OK.

English language. Without fail, it douses the slowly igniting fire in me and shatters every single hope that I thrive so hard to hold on. I had once felt that "how great would it be to be a 'banana'". But not now. Not anymore.

Perhaps I should have gone to China or Taiwan. Better still, stay in Malaysia.
Because, I feel like an outcast here. Somewhere I doesn't belong to.
No matter how hard I tried to fit in the society.

Although I had prepared for days, it came faster than what I've expected. The wave was gentle and mild, though.I just don't know how to swim when I am IN the water.So, I was drowned in the tsunami disaster. Badly injured as I am, I ran to the computer lab, to get in touch with the computer, which could probably ease my anguish.

Thirteen

The "anticipated tsunami" called off its initial plan to hit the AUSMAT Island this week and deferred its invasion for seven days. Indisputably, this alleviated most of the residents' suffering and allowed some time for them to live their own lives. [Hang out with friends instead of the BOOKS] Therefore, I decided I should post something tastes sweet this week in conjuction with the theme of the week- Honey Week.

Out of all the movie stars whom I admire, this entry will limit itself to the top threes in my list, namely, Johnny Depp, Nicolas Cage, and Jet Li.[The sequence/position of naming does not represents my level of admiration on them as it is well-nigh equally distributed.] To talk about their outstanding acting skills is as much use as a chocolate fire-guard as every human beings with BRAIN and EYES knows how professional and marvelous they are.

Johnny Depp. My friends who are the big fans of The Pirates of The Carribean bought me to him. With brutal honest, I felt a strong disgust towards him when I first looked at the poster of the movie. However, he managed to grab my heart within three hours in the dark cold room with his play as Captain Jack Sparrow in the Pirates of the Carribean 3: At World's End. I then borrowed the previous two pirates movies from my friends. In fact, I have a poster of his Captain Jack Sparrow in my room! I used to look into his eyes before I sleep and fantasized myself as his lover in his adventure as a pirate! That's silly huh... Besides that, his Sweeney Todd tragic ending[He killed his own wife as he didn't recognize her and later died hugging his wife's dead body in his arms] broke my heart despite the fact that he murdered tonnes of innocent people. Johnny Depp is indeed successful in manipulating my emotion with his brilliant acting skill.

Next, Nicolas Cage. He is seven years younger than my dad but he LOOKS ten years older than the latter. So, I first came across his name by watching the movie Ghost Rider. Again, I felt like walking out from the cinema when the charming young guy became an ugly old man [the ghost rider who is in his middle-age]who was played by Nicolas Cage. Then again, I fell for him after watching the movie and keep up with his latest plays such as Next, Bangkok Dangerous and Knowing!!!! Similarly, his play as Joe in Bangkok Dangerous wrecked my heart as well as he died in the end of the movie. Joe is a professional killer and he is paid to kill, with no mercy. However, he loses his creepily detached demeanor when he met her[a pharmacist who is dumb and deaf] and that's when the chinks begin to appear in his armour and eventually leads to his death, as a good guy at least.

Lastly, Jet Li. I became obsessed with him after I watched Danny the Dog[Unleashed]few months ago. I'm partial of his innocence in the movie. I wonder how on earth could such a person exist? He is handsome and he knows kung-fu! He has a big love for the world that he set up the One Foundation to help on the underprivileged and the unfortunate ones. Jet Li is the real hero!!!

As a whole, I like them. Til then.